hey there!

feeling low on energy more than not really gets at me. naturally being a very positive and high vibrating person, it feels so weird to feel low on energy too and wake up in a bad mood or without motivation. I don’t like it. today I woke up really early and went for a walk straight away. now I am sitting in my bed, reading positive books and it’s funny how quickly I gained energy from reading them. I am genuinely confused why I feel this way right now and have been for the past weeks.

reading back on the post a backpack full of… has made me realise that my soul is weighing heavy on not travelling right now. on leading a “normal life”, studying in my home town and not being fed pure adrenaline for breakfast. I need that again, I want adventures, more than anything. I want to be out there alone making unforgettable memories, helping people, seeing completely new worlds, being overwhelmed with all these emotions. and while I need to sit tight here for a few more months, I will condition my mind to think positive again. I am not my thoughts, I am what ever the hell I want to be and I will not let myself be influenced by others or my weird negative thoughts. I don’t like them and they are not me. they do not define me. I am whoever I want to be. I shape my own reality and I am positive. vibrating high on adrenaline, energy and good thoughts is who I really am. and only if I keep conditioning my subconscious mind into believing that again with all my heart, will I not only feel inner peace but happiness in this town that is too small for me.

being a creator, I have the tendency to want to sprinkle a lesson over every post but it’s okay to not do it. I feel like we also learn a lot from other people’s emotions and maybe you have been feeling the same way or can relate. my traveller soul will now study latin for a bright future and make sure to get the damn stamp on the paper that society wants so bad for me even though I know, that all I want is to be somewhere I’ve never been to, with people I don’t know with my soul grinning widely out of pure happiness because I listened to my calling.